Gas Leak

It's horrible.

I haven't had hot water to shower with for the past three days.

I've been showering using icy cold water.

No, its not fun.

All because there's a gas leak and there's repairs going on.

And no one knows when will the repairs be done.

It rained so heavily just now - still is actually.

And I'm craving for a hot bath.

=(

-= jialik =-

烟绪 - Cigarette's Muse

A friend of mine wrote this. Just thought of putting it up here.

I was so bored, I actually translated the entire thing into English. Well, sort of. I mean, its just impossible to translate writings like this and still expect to feel the emotions in them. So yeah, did some editing of my own.

See what boredom does to us huh?


昨夜心凉似水，柔柔的，冷冷的一滩死水。

我以为我的心扉不会再打开了，曾经的梦已成为璀璨长空的逝去流行。但是我依然无法克制去思念你。你说你不再相信任何事情，不再为任何事情流泪。可是你知道么，这世上没有能让你流泪的人，因为真正能让你流泪的人绝不会让你流泪。

吐出一口浓浓的你，刺得我的眼泪哗哗的流。化成你缕缕烟的你在我面前摇曳你的身姿，仿佛对我在卖弄你的自由。你在对我诉说，当你呗打火机点燃的那一刻起，你是自由的，你可以撕心裂肺的穿过我的心理，让我感受你那毒药般的温暖，慢慢的从我的嘴里吐出，化成一圈圈的光环。当我手被灼痛的那刻起，才知道你已经消散在空荡又冰冷的房间里。你努力的想离开我身边，从窗户的间隙中宁愿挤碎自己的身体也想要投进外面的黑夜。

我深深的吸了口气，想把你重新吸进我的心里，让我那火热的心温暖你被黑夜冻得冰冷的身体。我的脸憋得通红，最后还是忍不住吐出越来越淡的你，因为我知道你已不属于我了。

你终于离我而去了，虽然带给我温暖，刺得我流过泪。但当我追寻你的脚步儿仰望天空时，却浊浊的一片看不清你的身影。我记得你跟我说过；“没有过不去的，只有回不去的。”是啊，我泛黄的手指只证明了你曾经属于过我。

如果你累了，可以回到我身边，我会用整个心去温暖你，而且不怕你对我的伤害。

筱诗 著

Darkness settles. A chill gripped my heart, as though being drenched in cold, icy water. Emotionless, unfeeling.

I thought my heart would no longer open up for anyone. Dreams of what we once shared have faded away – as if a falling star, never to be found again. And still, I can’t stop this traitorous heart of mine from thinking of you, from missing you.

You said you never want to believe again. You never want to be hurt again. You never want to let another tear fall ever again. But do you not know, that there is no one is this world who can make you cry. Because those who have the power to, never will.

A deep exhale. Your deep, sweet scent made my eyes water. You became a hazy cloud of smoke and stood enticingly before me. As if shoving your freedom right in my face, whispering to me, taunting me. You told me that at the very moment you were lighted by that spark of flame, you were set free. Free to seep through my heart and soul; tear your way inside me; warm me with that poisonous affection of yours.

Escaping from my lips, you turned into dozens of light, shimmering halos. When I felt the sting of your burn on my fingers, only then do I realize how far you were gone. You left, leaving no trace of you in that cold, empty room. You left me alone to face the four walls of my silence. You tried so hard to escape my side, frantically grasping at every door gap, at every window crack. You would rather break yourself into a million tiny pieces, just to throw yourself into the solemn darkness outside.

I took a deep breath, trying to bring you back to me, back into my heart once more. You were so cold, so very chilled from the night. I wanted to warm you up with the smoldering heat of my heart, to let you know how much I need you. I tried so hard to hold you in. I tried so hard to keep you with me. Alas! I had to give in, setting you free to your freedom. Even then, you have paled, no longer the glorious thing you once were. You no longer belonged to me – that much I knew.

Yet, in the end, you left me. Throughout our time together, I have shed countless tears over you, had my heart broken over you. Nevertheless, you did once bring me warmth in those wintry days. I tracked your footsteps, looking up at the sky, searching for you. But there was no sign of you. All that I could see was a hazy cloud of nothingness, a part of the world void of your presence.

I remember that you once said, ‘There’s nothing that you can’t get over. Only things lost which can never be regained.’ Laughing bitterly to myself, I found the ugly, hard truth in your words. The yellowish tinges on my fingers were the only signs that you once belonged to me.

Whenever you are weary, I will always be there with you, to warm you, to calm you. I will safeguard you with all my heart, and nothing - not even the hurt that you will surely bring me, can ever make me back down from this promise of mine.


Haha.

-= jialik =-

Procrastination

I seem to be unable to escape from it.

But somehow, it seems as though I work best under pressure.

Even if I start on something early, by the time the due date rolls by, I'll just change the entire thing. Either make major amendments or that.

Oh well.

As long as I get it done right? Haha.

-= jialik =-

我的男人，别碰

我的男人，别碰。

女孩儿，就算你认识他很久，可是他现在是我的男人，所以请别在深夜超过12点的时候还打电话给他，说你心情不好，让他马上打电话给你，让他陪你聊天。因为，他现在是我的男人，午夜以后的电话只属于我一个人。

女孩儿，就算你们隔得很近很近，可是他现在是我的男人，所以请别老是找他吃饭，打台球，去网吧，并且让他给你讲笑话，让他看你手机里的照片。因为，他是我的男人，他的一切目光，从来不曾离开我。
　

女孩儿，就算他有多优秀有多帅，可是他现在是我的男人，所以，请别老是在空间里贴满他的照片，每一张，都有一句暧昧的标题，请别在你的手机里面给他一个暧昧的称谓，因为，他是我的男人，就不能跟别的女人暧昧。

女孩儿，就算你们的关系有多好，可是他现在是我的男人，所以，请别主动说要认他当哥哥，我讨厌自己的男人是别人的哥哥，这样你就可以无所顾忌地，当我们二人世界地时候打电话过来，并叫得亲热，以此彰显你们的关系。你要知道，如果我生气了，他便会毫不犹豫的从你的世界消失。

女孩儿，就算他在你心里有多重要，可是他现在是我的男人，所以，请你不要过来打扰他，因为，我的男人，我便是他的全世界，而你，在他的心中，永远留不下一个影子。
　　
女孩儿，如果你觉得他今天的围脖的手工很差，请别随意鄙视我的手艺。因为他是我的男人，他喜欢戴着我送他的东西，这跟形象没有关系，也跟你没关系，没一丁点儿关系。因为你送的再昂贵的围巾，他戴上也会觉得索然无味，冰冷刺骨。

女孩儿，就算你们迫不得已地要接触，并且很晚还不能回家，我的男人，他出于风度送你回家，请别让他随便上楼，我的男人，是很有风度的男人，他不懂得拒绝人，可是并不表示他喜欢你，请别拿这个向我炫耀，我的男人，我懂。

女孩儿，就算我的男人，他邀请你参加他的生日聚会，可是他现在是我的男人，请别送他暧昧的礼物，有些礼物是你不能送的，因为他已经是我的男人，我看了会不高兴，我的男人会尴尬，而你不要因为他接受你的礼物而窃喜，因为回到家，他还是会将礼物抛到一边，只为换来我的一个微笑。

女孩儿，就算有天大的难题，请不要一个人找借口留宿在他的家，因为，他是我的男人，即使他的家再大，也容不下一个小小的你，床上我们亲密的合照就是证据。如果你明白，请尊重我的男人，也请自重。

女孩儿，如果没有很盛大的活动，请不要一个人总在午夜叫他去酒吧，因为他是我的男人，每个夜晚，他身边只能有我的声音，而不是酒吧的灯红酒绿，小姐的莺莺笑声。如果他拒绝了你，请你谅解。如果我和他同去，请你欢迎。

女孩儿，就算他曾经属于你，请不要在你生日的时候向他索取暧昧的礼物，因为他是我的男人，你当初没有珍惜，错过了这么好的男人，那么现在你也决夺不走他。因为在他的心中，我再疲惫的容颜也赛若天仙。而你长的再漂亮，和他都没有关系。

女孩儿，我的男人，他再优秀再高大再帅再温柔再有风度，他也是我的男人。

记住，我的男人，别碰


Got this off Xiao Nei.

Kinda like it. I'd imagine loads of girls out there can truly connect with this piece of writing. So yeah, just sharing it here. =)

-= jialik =-

Home

Ever realised how difficult it is to have one?


Location. Rent. Space.

3 simple words.

I never knew it can be this hard. =/

-= jialik =-

Groundbreaker

Guess what?

Newcastle University made a breakthrough in stem cell research.

"British scientists claimed Wednesday to have created human sperm from embryonic stem cells for the first time, an accomplishment they say may someday help infertile men father children. "

"Human sperm have been created using embryonic stem cells for the first time in a scientific development which will lead researchers to a better understanding of the causes of infertility. "

Playing God? Testing human limits? Or just beating reality?

-= jialik =-

Movie Update

Ice Age 3 was hilarious!

I absolutely loved that squirrel thingy which kept chasing after that acorn. Haha.

But, Ice Age was not a match compared to The Hangover.

Seriously? The Hangover is like the must watch movie. I'm very sure no one will be able to stop themselves from laughing their heads off.

Sad that the person next to me was as silent as... as... a dead body while I was watching it. Seriously, I don't understand how a person can watch a comedy like this one and not laugh?! Weirdo.

Owh, the cinema has arranged seating now. Boo.

-= jialik =-

Okay Vicher, am doing it...

Vicher's tag from Facebook.

RULES: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to copy-paste this note, and answer all the questions. At the end, choose 15 people to be tagged - including the person who tagged you. (To do this, go to “notes” under tabs (+) on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, paste the questions, answer the questions, tag 15 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

ABC About You Questions:
A - AVAILABLE: Yup. Not seeking though.
B - BIRTHDAY: 9th January
C - CRUSHING ON: Ben & Jerry's Chocolate Macadamia
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Oasis - Citrus Punch
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: I don't do a lot of talking.
F - FAVORITE SONG: Right now? We Are by Ana Johnsson
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Gummy Worms
H - HOMETOWN: Subang
I - IN LOVE WITH: Sleeping
J - JUGGLE: no, I can't do that.
K - KILLED SOMEONE: Wanted to, never did.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: Uhh.. Can't remember.. not too sure really..
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: I don't like milkshakes..
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2
O - ONE WISH: Happiness
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Xiao Shi. (to wake her up.. =/)
R - REASON TO SMILE: prawns! chocolate! ice cream! cookies!
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: We Are by Ana Johnsson =P
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 7.20am
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: No way am I announcing this. =/
V - VEGETABLE(S): Kangkung!!!
W - WORST HABIT: Procrastination
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Chest, Teeth.
Y – YOYOS ARE: Round and annoying?
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Capricorn

Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels: FJLK
What color do you wear most?: Not too sure - black?
Least favorite color?: Anything florescent.
What are you listening to?: Tattoo by Jordin Sparks
Are you happy with your life right now?: Well, I am enjoying myself right now. Can't ask for more.
What is your favorite class in school?: PE!!! Haha.
When do you start back at school/college?: Tomorrow?
Are you outgoing?: Depends on the crowd.
Favorite pair of shoes?: My bare feet.
Where do you wish you were right now?: Home!!!

THE CANS:
Can you dance?: Yeah, sort of.
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: Tried. Fail. Tried. Fail. Give Up.
Can you whistle?: Yeah
Write with both hands?: Yeah, but you just can't read one of them..
Walk with your toes curled?: Yes, but why would I want to do that?

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?:Yes
Do you believe in miracles?:Yes.
Do you believe in magic?: No.
Love at first sight?: No.
Do you believe in Satan?: No.
Do you believe in Santa?: No.
Do you know how to swim?: Yes.
Do you like roller coasters?: I LOVE THEM!
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: NO.

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: Stupid question really.
Have you ever asked someone out?: Romantically? Nope.
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: Unfortunately yes.
Have you ever been to the ocean?: Yeah.
Have you ever painted your nails?: Yup.

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: 17 degree celcius..
What radio station do you listen to?: None here. =/
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: Does the bistro count?
What was the last thing you bought?: Food
What was the last thing on TV you watched?: Its been a while since I've laid eyes on a TV.

THE WHOS:
Who was the last person you IM'd?: Trixie.
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: Suk Jun.
Who was the last person you said I love you to?: Meaning it? Parents.

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: Who doesn't?
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: It's horrible - never want to do it ever again.
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: Yeah.
Ever cried over the opposite sex?:Hah. Nope.

Do you cry when you get an injury?: Depends.
Do certain songs make you cry?: Depends.

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person?: Depends.
What can make you happy? : Depends.
Do you wish you were happier?: Of course.
Can music make you happy?: Yeah.

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken?: Who keeps count!? =/
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? Wouldn't everyone do that for their family? =/

LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color?: Dark Brown
Current piercings?: 2
Have any tattoos?: Nope.
Eye color?: Dark Brown.

IN A BOY/GIRL:
Favorite eye color: No idea.
Short or long hair: Short.
Height: Tall, no question about it.
Best clothing: Tux!!! *sigh

HAVE YOU EVER
Been to jail: Haha. Monopoly!
Mooned someone: Nope.
Laughed so hard you cried: Yeah.
Cried in school: Sadly, yeah.
Thrown up in a store: Nope.
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: My memory's not that great. =/
Gone skinny dipping: Nope.

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke: Coke - VERY cold and diluted.
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's here, Burger King in Malaysia.
Single or Group Dates: Depends.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate.
Strawberries or Blueberries: Blueberries.
Meat or Veggies: Veggies.
TV or Movie: Movie.
Guitar or Drums?: Guitar.
Adidas or Nike: Nike.
Chinese or Mexican: Chinese.
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Corn Flakes.
Cake or Pie: Cake.
MTV or VH1: MTV.

Okay, I've wasted enough time now.

Biology essay. Study Skills presentation. Sigh.

-= jialik =-

Blink

How much change can happen in one blink?

It seems as though death is all around all of a sudden these days.




And not to mention that damned swine flu still going around. =/

-= jialik =-

ps: friend, i'm sorry for your loss...